CHAPTER 3

This is something unpredictable,remember when i said ive been close with my friends ex boyfriend,and remember i told you that i doubt with him.its surprised me,that its true.

He’s not a good guy,here’s the story,when i go with linda my junior high school friend,i decided to meet with tika and ayu(the ex of the boy).first time we talk about somethings fun,and a topic about me and the boy flow so far so good until ayu open and tell all about the boy,every single thing that he told me was a liar,i dont feel jealous,because ive been worried before,well,just a little bit jealous,

Something made me upset is ive been foolish by someone who even didnt deserve for me,a playboy with worthless thing,a bastard,a mothefucker,a sucker,i hate him so much.and more,i know it from ayu,a girl who not better than  me in every side,ayu is a slutt.

However,i could not blame them,even i hate them,this all was my fault because im too fool to trust the boy,i will hate him for hole my life.even he have been apologize to me so bad and he ask me for the second chance,but im so fed up with him and im done.

I was so upset,and so down.and theres another story,this happening one time with the first story.this boy was my junior high school friend,i know him but im never know his name,and i never talk to him,

Unfortunattely,im never thought that he was a romantic type of guy,and hes kindly,well acctually,for the first time he was cheappy,because one day after i gave my number and he text me,je say he love me,dont you think that was a fool way to be an amatir playboy,i laughing,and im not get a seroius with that.but when the first story happen,im so uppset and im so route,im angry,im let it go to him,i was yelling to him,spit everything to him,even he confused he doesnt angry,im confess he was a very patient guy,even so patient untill i cant believe he can do that and he loves me with that patient.

So the next day,i decided to gave him a second chance,and when he confess that he loves me,i accept that confession,so.he is my boyfriend now,honestly,i dont love him,but i learn to love him,

But i still have to  warning about him,however he is a boy,he is a bastard like everyboy in the world.i still doubt he really loves me or not,i now and i thought that,it was the feeling wich save me from th broken heart.but much longer i be with him,i feel so drowning into his love. Im scared of that.

Honestly theres several thing wich make me a little bit a shamne,the first thing is,he is my neighboor,so everybody was know we both,and the second ting well,he is a poor guy,he doesnt have even a motor bike,its weard when i have a date with him i have to go by a public car.even walking,well,acctually it was exciting but so long it could be ashamed. I know its not good to feel like that ,but now,im so confused what im gonna do and im wondering whats gonna happen next.... L L L