CHAPTER 2

i know it was my mistake,and i deserve to regret,but i dont know,am i blaming my self because my mistake,or because he fooling around me...sometimes i realize,that im just a sucker for love,i love someone who even didn apreciate me,its always like that...i supposed to be learn,and i think i learn it but on the ground,i still cant do it as my theories,i know all about cheating,personality,even any type of guy,..ive learn so much,but still cant do it,i allready push my heart to do as the theories..but im fail.i need to lear to use it or do it..but im done with my trying,and i, so fed up with love,tired of hurt...so i decided to stop love someone,thats something new,wich i will learned,not to learn about being better in love..but learned to keep my heart from the heartbreaker...”stop to love”.

So this is the problem,i met this guy when my friend introduce him as her boyfriend,when i look this guy,i think he was nice guy,im happy for my friend because she allready find a goodguy for her self,but the second time i met him,he still with my friend,but funny they allready be a sister and abrother,well not trully,just  a retorism phrase...

This guy was look so sick because my friend has been back to her old boyfriend,the bad one..and she keepn tell the story in front of him,how so trippin..acctualy im concern,but i dont care...

Something unbelieveble,i took attention to this guy from the first time we met,and the second time,i think i like him,.but im pretty sure about my friend,an i appreciate her,as his ex girlfriend...im not dating with my friends ex,its horrable..

Now,its getting bigger when we start to stick each other,starting from the facebook thing,text message,and now he call me baby on his message,well i do the same honestly.but we not meet each other since our second met,when he was stick with my friend as his exgirlfriend,well i told you that they have been separated away,for a long time,this guy was mad because she have been fooling around him,funny isnt it,but she still chasing this guy,may be she just feeling sorry like i did...i know that feeling

The point of the problem is,i dont know this is right or not,i like him but im not love him,because you know im learn to stop loving...but this guy event not listen to me discuss this problem,he said that he just wanna be free and simpple,i started to think that he just running from his mistake.i just dont wanna go too far with my feeling.

And this is getting complicated,for me,i dont know is he loves me,i don know is he serious about our relation ship,or just playing around with me,i dont know is he only doing this with me or he was a playboy....what i deffinetly i know is,if i go more far.i will hurt again...and ruin of all my plan about heart learning.