18 Oktober 2011

i never knew or i never thought that will coming,i just wanna share my feeling now,not my story goes on.because its too much painfull to be retell...my feelings now is,so upset,so embarassed,so disapointed,and was so feel unconfident,
and once again so phatetic.
i relize and i know how far i can do and how long i can be a rival,for love its depend on my enemy,if she more ugly than me,then i will stand and hold up but if she more beautyfull,i done dude....
i know that we cant judge the people from they physic,but its reallity that a boys always do that.
ins't ?

9 Oktober 2011

dear blog,
i know I've been to much....i don't behave like a good girl,I'm sorry,I'm regret that...but i know i will do that again,i don't know whats wrong with my heart,because when i have a relationship with a boy,and i don't love him,.i will be so cruel to him,hurt him,but don't leave him...so i just play with him,i know its not a good thing,and i know the karma...but i don't know why i did that.may be because i cant make a decision.that was my weakness,sometimes my weakness are hurt,it can hurt somebody else,and even hurt my self....
i wanna be single,but i wanna have a boyfriend either...so whats the solution supposed to be? a solution which don't need a decision ? anybody knew ? cause i don't...
tomorrow is my birthday,and I'm sad for that day because what happen today....
more bad,tomorrow is my seventeenth birthday,pretty phatetic...

8 Oktober 2011

okay,its been a long time i don't speak about my life,my true life...not only my sadness love story...today i trough my day with usually...
i just say anything goes usually,except the several things.you know what?
this thing,write my diaries like this make my heart sad,because it was like revealed all my sadness...
make everything complicated...
i don't want it,but i just enjoy it,let it flow again...hey,anyway,its almost my sweet seventeen birthday,i don't want anything special,just let it usually...i don't have a special interest..
i just expecting something surprised.something good.. :)